There has been a news about a break through in curing AIDS. It is said that there has been a cure already for the deadly disease.
I personal don't want that to happen, it's because if ever there would be a cure for the said disease the rate of unprotected sex would really changed dramatically. People may think its okay to have sex with anybody, anytime and anywhere since there is a cure for it like any other diseases. The boundary for us to know that life is not just all about sex will be gone to dust. How horrible is that? Many families and relationships would be broken to pieces.
I know I may sound exaggerating but come to think of it, what would happen if AIDS has a cure? What will happen to the world? Please leave your comments and views about the cure for AIDS.
I was just 17 when I started to venture on same sex. I heard stories from my peers and neighbor that gays are good in giving you a head. I was curious and I fantasized that to happen to me. Since then whenever I masturbate I would imagine that a gay guy would suck mine. I don't know why but every time I heard stories about two men having sex, would really make me arouse. Later on I was on an identity crisis.
As the years pass I decided maybe I was just curious then. So I set myself that I would only fuck boys and love girls -- in short I was "TOP." Someone had introduced me to "MIRC," an internet char relay. There I learned some room where I can find some guys to experiment with -- with same sex. I was young, so many of the guys would really want me. I had several sex encounters being top. I had fucked several cute guys and some curious guys like me. Some were younger that me but most of them are older than me. I enjoyed being Top, watching the face reaction of my partner, enjoying my bottom suck and ride mine.
Years later, I decide to have a fuck buddy(fubu) since during that time HIV was rampant. I thought having one sexual partner would be safer. Anyways, I met guy who wanted the same. We had hot sweaty sex every time we do it. He was versatile and I was top. We've been together for about 3 months, we were like a couple already. With in that 3 months my partner got bored with our role. So he told me, to try sucking his. I was hesitant and I was really disgusted. He made me do it, he forced me, he held my head let his, "his" into my mouth. I was about to puke after that.
Weeks had gone, we never talked to each other and or even communicate. Until such time that I missed sucking his jewel. I don't know got into me but I missed it. He talked to me first and ask for an apology, he said he was just horny that time and his tired of being a bottom. I accepted his apology and told him to teach me how to suck. He was startled and confused. I was confused too but it felt good whenever I imagine sucking his jewel. So, without hesitation he taught me how to suck. And I learned. If his not that I cute I would really not going to suck him. As a normal relationship ours died to its natural death. We parted each other after 3 months.
After that every time someone would ask me what's role in bed, I would answer versa since I already learned how to suck. So, I was sexually active again in the chat room with my new role. I don't suck a lot, only if my partner would be irresistible. I had several partners again. Until such time courted me and wanted me to be his boyfriend. I hesitant again, because I told my self that I'm not gay. I would not love a boy, but I would only fuck him. But I failed, I learned to love him. His the very first guy that I fell in love with. During that time I accepted my self that I'm not straight anymore. But our relationship didn't last long.
So, I get back to business and return to my vice -- sex. Back into the chat room and fuck again some teenage boys. I was 19 y.o. when I met a guy who deflowered me. He was 4 years older than me. At first he told me that he was a bottom and want me to fuck him. We decided to meet on a lodging house. And that was a nightmare, he raped me, forced me to received his. I was crying but I can't do anything his bigger than me. After that incident I decided to revenge to anyone, I don't know why but I really wanted to revenge. I've met several young tops whose smaller than me, and I forced them to receive mine. I was satisfied seeing them cry with pain. Then I repent, its not their fault why I was deflowered it was mine, so I stopped doing that. I was sexually dormant for about a year.
Then I entertained some relationship, some were a happy relationship with love but most of them was just pure lust. I had this partner who taught me to be a bottom. I was in love with him so whenever he wants me to fuck, I would agree. I gave him my all but eventually he abandoned me. He chose his career over me. During this relationship I was the bottom.
Now I have a new partner and I also love him so much. He is a versa and I am too. But every time we had sex, he's the top and I am the bottom. I don't know why but If I see my partner is satisfied the I am satisfied too. Even though I really wanted to fuck him or let him suck mine, I would sacrifice that just for him to be satisfied.
A love match between a Cancer and a Pisces is a positive meeting of spirits. Both signs are basically tolerant and sympathetic, and Pisces is easily energized by Cancer's ideas. A Pisces mate can open a Cancer's eyes to the world of creativity and spirituality. In turn, Cancer's practicality can be a guide, leading Pisces to the fruition of their dreamy, utopian ideas. This celestial pairing benefits from an amazingly strong and multifaceted emotional bond.
Cancer loves material goods, they admire and they appreciate. Cancer desires comfort and a rich home, and at times might not understand the simplistic, minimalist lifestyle of their Pisces mate. Though they may work toward different goals of acquisition and lifestyle, the shared emotional depth of Cancer and Pisces can make theirs a very rewarding relationship.
The Moon (Emotion) rules Cancer, and Jupiter (Philosophy) and Neptune (Illusion and Dreams) rules Pisces. When the Moon and Neptune come together, a beautiful spiritual connection is made. Both of these celestial bodies vibrate with warm, feminine energy. Together, they create an idealistic, almost divine relationship, one that puts much significance on dreams and illusions. Jupiter also rules Pisces. This Planet of Good Fortune adds a masculine energy to this planetary combination, representing philosophy, expansion and excesses. The nature of this combination offers a utopian relationship: It is drenched in emotional intrigue and is a true celestial bond. Emotion, depth, warmth, expansion --
it all sounds too good to be true, doesn't it. Though they both ask a lot of their love relationships, Cancer must be careful not to cramp the floating Fish, as Pisces will suffocate under too many demands.
it all sounds too good to be true, doesn't it. Though they both ask a lot of their love relationships, Cancer must be careful not to cramp the floating Fish, as Pisces will suffocate under too many demands.
Cancer and Pisces are both Water Signs. Since Water is a tangible, physical entity, Cancer and Pisces are generally very compatible. Pisces are in this world to create human connections, and when they come together with Cancerian intuition and nurturing, there is no stronger bond. So that this union does not wash out in a stream of romantic idealism, Cancer's stable view of life holds them afloat. And it's not a case of Cancer putting up with a dreamy Pisces mate: Cancer really understands emotional ambiguity and can help Pisces stabilize their ephemeral nature. Though Cancer could grow weary of their Pisces mate's faraway nature, and though Pisces could be bothered by Cancer's self-centeredness, it's easy for this pair to find a compromise.
Cancer is a Cardinal Sign, and Pisces is a Mutable Sign. Though intuitive, in love, as in life, Cancer likes to get things moving with a good idea and a solid plan, and they'll write it all down to keep track. Pisces, on the other hand, is more about going on instinct; they'd lose that plan as soon as Cancer handed it to them! Cancer needs to give Pisces the freedom to enjoy their external interests and to occasionally follow a whim undeterred. Pisces can show Cancer that completion is sometimes better than initiation, and that compromise without struggle can pay off. Cancer and Pisces feed off of each other's energy well, and should be completely compatible in romance.
What's the best thing about the Cancer-Pisces love match? Their similar emotional natures. Both have a great capacity for emotion and compassion, and both can act as teacher AND student. They complement and harmonize with one another very well. The overall empathy and commitment that these two Signs value in a relationship is what will keep the ties strong and long lasting between the Crab and the Fish.
THE PLAN
Last week, he(my boyfriend) suggested that on our monthsary, we would stay on a beach resort to celebrate that event. I was so happy and excited that I've waited for that day to come. I changed all my plans, cancelled all my activities that would affect our day and even backed out on a free Bohol trip with my former teammates. We bumped some little problems like our budget and the place we should stay at. So, I did everything I looked for a cheaper resort that would fit for his budget. I asked him if is it okay that we would look for someone that we could share with, so that our expenses would not be that big. He said yes. I was able to find a person that is willing to share expenses with us and it was all set. I was able to sleep happily, so excited for the day to come. I told myself cancelling my activities and appointments would not be useless at all because I would be with my love one for our monthsary.
BADNEWS & THE FIGHT
September 4, 2009 -- It was almost noon when I woke up. I happily greeted him good morning and said I love you. We were exchanging sms smoothly, until he told me that our plan might not be pursued because they'll be having a team building. I was startled and disturbed. All of the sudden I was very very mad to him. I told foul words that I almost cursed him. I was so disappointed at him. I argued with him and told him all the bad things that I can say. I told him all the efforts and sacrifices I made just to make sure that our plan will pursue. I was really angry. I was in a bad hair day!
WALKOUT
I went to school with an angry face that nobody would want to talk to me. I still argued with him through sms, even if I'm in class. I can't concentrate. I was full of anger, it feels like I wanna kill somebody. I told him that we should meet after my class and talk about it. And we did, we went to this mall and talk there. I let out all my emotions, my disappointments ang my anger to him, and he was just silent that irritated me most. But I was able to cool down after letting out all I want to say. I told him that we should go private because I want to hug him. He said yes, and we rode a jeepney to get there. At the middle of our travle he told me that we won't pursue it because he has a headache. And there I flared up again because for the third time he disappoints me. When I the jeepney stopped I hurriedly went out and left him.
COMMENT
The reason why I flared up so much is because I expected to much. I got jealous because he chosed his teammates over me. I am so possesive that I want all his attention. I also got irritated when he told me that I was just looking for a flaw on him so that I could break up with him. I was really in pain when he said that. And I was blinded with my anger that I didn't care for him. But still I love him so much. I know I have a short commings too.
Three days after I visited at my baby's place, I went back again. Hehehehe... I missed him so much that's why I thought I could make a visit. I sent him an SMS that I need to see him. He replied he can't because of money matters. I was upset because I really missed him. But minutes later I received an SMS from telling me that their adjacent bario is having a fiesta and he invited me to come over. Well I was so happy that I almost jumped off to my feet. I arrived their at 10 pm.I don't know why, but I'm always happy whenever I'm with him. I'm so inlove to him. We went to a disco, it was held on a complex/basketball court/barangay outpost/disco house hehehe. We chilled for a while, wandering around, looking at people's dance. After that we went to his former classmates during highschool and danced with them. Even though I don't know how to dance and I didn't dance at all, I was enjoying with the company of my baby. He showed to me his dancing skills, it was funny but cute. I observed that his classmates like him very much.
It was past 12 midnight when we decided to go home. Well obviously I can't go home to my own house so I have to sleep at his place again... hmpf yummy hehehe... We didn't sleep at his room cause his parents were there and we don't want to disturb them. We stayed in a bamboo made waiting shed. And the thing is, its very open the only thing that covers it is a curtain. Actually we really planned to have sex. So, there he initiated the foreplay. When he licked my nipples I almost screamed for pleasure and he stopped then told me to be quite. I asked him if there's other place that I can moan? He said yes. It was an unfinished house it has a little room. And there we did it. We had sex a very great sex full of passion and love. It was quite an experience having sex outdoor. I never did it before.
After that we went back to the waiting shed and had a little talk. Then we were hungry and decided to went inside their house and eat. It's really nice eating dinner with your boyfriend. After eating he showed to me his photo album, it was really a cute gesture and I liked. I'm so happy with my baby. Hope we could never lose each other.
After that we went back to the waiting shed and had a little talk. Then we were hungry and decided to went inside their house and eat. It's really nice eating dinner with your boyfriend. After eating he showed to me his photo album, it was really a cute gesture and I liked. I'm so happy with my baby. Hope we could never lose each other.
Yesterday, I slept at my boyfriend's place. And it was one of the happiest day in my life that finally I've met his parents and family. It is alo an adventure... I'll go with details.
Prior that day, I asked him if he could help me with my project -- a painting project. He said yes, and invited me at his place to make it and it is also his niece's 4th birthday. I was so excited when he finally invited me to come over though I was hesitant at first. There was a lot of things running to my mind, like what might happen during my stay there? Or his parents might know that we are in a relationship.
It was an hour and a half of travel at his place. I must admit it was so risky because the road is too dark and loopy. We were riding a "habal-habal" in going there. It was a nice experience, its like an adventure, actually his place is like in the middle of the forest. Peace! When we arrive his family were celebrating already, drinking liquors and singing karaoke. We went inside his house and ate. The food was so yummy and his place is very cute a typical filipino house. In fact, I wanna live there if possible. After eating we immediately work on my project. We painted sceneries and his nieces wathed us paint. I was enjoying the company of my boyfriend and his niece and I was so at home, I don't know why. In short I was so happy. We finished painting at around 11 pm and the most exciting part is about to happen.
We slept in a room shared by his mother and brother-in-law. There were two beds one is for his mother and other is for us. His borther-in-law slept at floor. I tried to suggest to my boryfriend that we can sleep at the "sala," so that we can have more privacy but I failed. So we were in bed already, its kinda akward we were both facing the ceiling no movements at all. We were like militaries, we are so stiffed. I laid my hands next to me and he immediately grabbed it, so we were holding each others hands. (How sweet!)
I can't remember all the details, well what happen next is we were kissing each other ignoring that his mother and brother-in-law were in the same room with us. It was so nerve bracking yet exciting. After that he reached for my cock and stroked it beautifully. I did the same and we were jerking each others cock. There are times that we would stop when we hear movements. We were so hot that time. We kissed again and he played with nipples, damn it was hot. I was so kinky and horny that I wanted to suck and fuck him or let him fuck me. I asked him that we should continue it at the kitchen, since it was dark and we can have more privacy. He refuses because his father might woke up and we might be caught. I was disappointed, I was almost in the pick and I wanted a nice hot sex, yet he refuses. There we cool down and went to sleep.
I can't sleep, I still want to suck him. So, I grabbed his hands and sucked his fingers. And I can tell that he likes it so much because of his reaction and I can see on his face that he wanted to moan already. We kissed again and he played my nipples. My libido is back again. Since, we can't go at the kitchen I thougn of a solution. I crawled down to his pants and he covered me with his blanket. I grabbed his cock and it was full of precum already, damn it was a hot cock. My mouth is watering already, wanting to put his cock on my mouth. As his cock touches my mouth, damn it was heaven, it was hot and hard. I tasted and licked his cock like there's no other day. I can't really describe the feeling, it was mixed emotions -- nervouse, excited and fullfilling. I sucked his cock till he cum, and damn it was a hot cum! I swallowed it immediately tasting every drop of it. I can say that he cummed so much that it almost filled my whole mouth. And we were satisfied and went to sleep. Haizt... hope that day will repeat itself. I love to live wiht boyfriend. The feeling of security when I'm with him is so heaven. I love him so much.
What a feeling! I can't explain it, I'm so happy today. Tears of joy flow in my eyes and a very big smile puased on my face. This is the sweetest phrase that my love told me after our big fight. I'm so touched. I love him so much....
Finally we had a talked. We were able to clarify things out. Expressed whats on our mind and carefully listened to every details. I almost cry during that time. I love him so much and I don't want to lose him ever.
It is really best when you and your partner is open to each other. Whatever misunderstandings that you may have, you can sit and talk about it. By doing this you can save your relationship.
I never did this to my previous relationships, I don't why? Maybe they are not that special to me? This guy whom I call baby bro is my life. I'm so glad that we're okay now. I know that this is just one of the trials that we're going face. There are a lot to come and I can feel it that we can outstand these challenges. I just can't believe how happy I am. So happy, I'm being blessed.
I tried my best to be honest with you. I tried so hard to protect you. I hid all the necessary information in order to protect you. I told lies to cover my past for you to love me.For what I know my past isn't that important that what we have right now. I tought it was going to be fine. Nothing can make us inseparable and no one can ruin our relationship. I tried my best to show you that've changed. You don't know what I've been through just to love you. I sacrifice the pleasure that I used to get before. What happened? When a memory from my past almost inculcated your mind. You almost lost your faith on me. Prejudiced my actions and you inflected pain in your heart, considered yourself victim. Sensation of grief and betrayal succumb your sanity. It almost ruin our bond that we tried to establish since the day we first met. And you let your self immerse to what you've learn about me. Is it ironic? You tried so hard to be good, hide all the bad things that had happened, yet these bad things would still come out in the open and it will try to havoc your present situation. You tell white lies in order to protect yourself, yet they will still be mad at you. And if you tell the truth they would still be mad at you. I almost died when it happened good thing that we were able to fix it. I hope nothing can harm our relationship anymore, cause I can't live without him. I know this is just one of the trials that we're going to face. And I'm ready for it, I know we can suppased any trials.
Me and my boyfriend celebrated our first "monthsary" two days ago. Our love story is quite typical and should I say destined? I met him in a social web community called Tagged.
It's really funny to think that I've met my partner through Tagged. I was hesitant at first in creating an account for them. First I don't like it's features. Second, I didn't like the layout at all. And last but not the least it has less users unlike with Friendster or Facebook or Multiply that it really has a big number of participants.
Well, I decided to create an account, since it annoys me when they send me bunch and bunch of emails inviting me to creating one. I tried to browse their site, familiarize how it works and try to use their applications. Trying to immerse myself in using it. I attempted to amuse myself with their "Meet me Interest" game. I had fun actually, seeing cute guys on my screen and clicking them as match.
But only one guy caught my attention. He was really cute, neat and refine. I hit a message asking if he was a bisexual. Hoping that he would say yes. Then, he replied yes and the next is history. At our first month of relationship I can really say we are still on the "getting to know each other stage." Little by little we share our differences and accepting for WHO we are and not forWHAT we are. And by that we could really know each other best.
Now, that we are able to surpassed a month of trials and difficulties. I am hoping that our relationship would last and it would grow stronger as we face the everyday life.
I was really disturbed when our teacher told us about the story of Sodom and Gomorrah. Its sins and destruction. Mainly Sodom and Gomorrah were destroyed because of homosexuality. God poured out sulfur and brimstone form heaven and burned the city and every living to ashes by ashes.
Asking myself if is it the real score? or our teacher is just trying to imply that homosexuality is a sin to christianity, makes my head hurt! really hurt!
I'm still on a stage of identity crisis, that is why I label myself as BISEXUAL. I still don't know what I should end up to. I wanna go out of this shell but thinking that since I was raised as Catholic being "gay" is a huge sin. I was able to escape once but now I don't know what to do.
Someone is loving me so truly right now and I feel the same way too. But after hearing the story of Sodom and Gomorrah made me worried to pain. I don't know if I should follow the rite of Catholicism or the liberation of man.
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